Not So Random Thoughts On: Release

Mercury’s Retrograde is over! Yay!

Mercury’s Retrograde is a time of confusion. Electronics don’t work. Thoughts are fuzzy. Words don’t come out right. There’s miscommunication. Just a whole slew of random complications.

Yesterday morning on the way to work, my scooter crapped out on me 4 times! In traffic. My scooter is part electric. “Thanks a lot, retrograde!”

But, it’s over. {sigh of relief} Today is a new day free of the planetary fuckshit that has been driving us all crazy the first month of the new year.

“Yay, freedom!”

I’m so excited. I’m also sick, so that’s a bummer. But, we’ll complain about that another day.

Let’s talk about “Release”

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Letting go… Moving on… Onwards and upwards…

It’s time.

With the retrograde over, it is now time to reflect on all the things we learned during the retrograde.

•What we learned about ourselves…
•What we learned about others…
•Our relationships…
•Our boundaries…
•Our agreements with ourselves and others…
•Our goals…

It’s time for some house cleaning. The house, of course, being our life.

My house, for example, has way too many things crammed up in the attic. Too many people that I’m holding onto for sentimental reasons.

Just yesterday I thought about reaching out to an old friend. See, I have this habit of forgiving people who hurt me through disappointment, and asking them to come back, usually with no apologies needed or no consideration of why it’s probably best that they remain out of my life.

Fuck that. New day. New agreements. New boundaries.

My basement is filled with all the childhood hurts and disappointments.

My kitchen holds my problematic relationship with food.

My bathroom*? Poor self-image and low self-worth.

My bedroom? Let’s just not even go in there…

My point is, my house—my life—is filled with all of these negative thoughts, emotions, habits, and triggers and they gots ta go.

It’s time to light a candle, open all the doors and windows, burn the sage, and say a prayer.

•Write down old habits and replace them with new S.M.A.R.T. goals**.
•Write a list of people and determine if they are adding to or taking from your life and energy.
•Find a mantra to say to yourself when you are triggered. (My most recent ones are, “I am safe,” and “Be bold. Be brave. Take up space.”)

Basically, in the words of one Keomi Tarver***:

“Do what you need to do to be okay.”

This is your life. Release all the things that no longer serve you.

It’s time.

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|*Link to poem “The Bathroom” by Patrick Pressl. This poem touches me in a way I can’t even explain.
|**S.M.A.R.T. goals are goals that are Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Relevant, and Time-bound.
|***Keomi Tarver is a New York based, San Diego born ball of amazingness. Get familiar.

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